Church cliques or the real World rejects?

Posted: October 25, 2011 in Uncategorized
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I am attempting to go back to church, because about 4 years ago it was a VERY big part of my life. I attended Hillsong until I moved away from London & church, but going back I thought would be easy. I was wrong, so VERY WRONG!

4 years ago church was very different at Hillsong, it was very much segregated into cliques, but 4 years later these cliques have become very exclusive. Is this what God wanted from his church? Before the cliques were easy to gain entry into, attend a function & there would a group of people waiting to invite you into their clique, but those functions have gone. I feel so sorry for anyone that is trying to find God here, because I don’t see him there anymore.

The last Sunday that I was there I actually left before it even started & went to the cinema. I felt so guilty, but I felt like I was being taunted. I spoke to a girl to try & get introduced to a connect group (weekly meetings for Christians to meet & band over God), but I walked away as though she had felt sick by the sight of me. Even the group of people she wanted to put me with were a fair distance from where I live & the group that I could see that looked closer she dismissed as though I was not worthy.

Being at Hillsong I feel like a secret millionaire, they discount me before they even realise what I have to offer. They could never meet Christ as they are too caught up in their own lives & cliques that even Jesus himself would be missed if he visited.

I am now left wondering whether this church that once (I felt) saved me from being a lone Christian, has now become the place that will push me away from my faith in God.

I know that no one from that church will ever read this or even care about my thoughts, as no one ever does, but this only has become a topic because I went to an event at Hillsong called The Gathering & the topic of the topic was “friendship”. It was so ironic that at the event one of the speakers talked about the church cliques & when people were upset with someone just moved on to a new group because the church was so big, but no one mentioned being a friend to everyone. Regardless of having you own little exclusive clique it is still supposed to be God’s house & God’s people.

I wonder what the next 4 years hold for the Christian community if they are becoming so exclusive who will or would want to be a part of it… Because today I don’t want to associate with God’s community because I don’t want to isolate myself from the people that I can save from pain, suffering or loneliness. The church has enough friends (cliques) within its walls, I think I will be friends with those without.

  1. Christie says:

    I hear you. Had a 6 month stint at Hillsong in Australia. Even attended the Bible College. Never felt a sense of real belonging…assigned friendships in connect groups full of other single women also deemed “old maid” at just 30yrs…married now wth a child. I can only imagine the mothers club. I think big churches have all their issues amplified. I think they’re also unable to deal with real social issues as they don’t evolve organically. They are run very much like big businesses. I’m so glad I left. My faith is so much stronger wthout all the pretend joy and unbiblical church obligations. I’ve gained a lot from the “Free Believers Network” “Sapphire Leadership” and other more real, more meaty organisations. I also have the time for ppl outside of the church (kind of the point really ). Hope you’re doing well.

    • Unmarked Me says:

      I’m so glad that they didn’t take your faith away. I think the glitz and fame get in the way of the community and connectedness of what a church should be. I am so happy that you didn’t give up on god blessing you with a family because age is nothing but a number to god.
      Thank you for sharing. God Bless you.

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