Archive for December, 2012

New Year’s Dilemma

Posted: December 31, 2012 in Uncategorized
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Also at your times of rejoicing—your appointed festivals and New Moon feasts—you are to sound the trumpets over your burnt offerings and fellowship offerings, and they will be a memorial for you before your God. I am the Lord your God.” (Numbers 10:10 NIV)

A new year, but I am not going to rehash my previous post, but a thought...

My boyfriend keeps asking me whether I want to go back to church… I am in a dilemma. (My boyfriend is not religious)

I still believe in God, but I don’t believe in the Church.

There is a church, I went to their Easter service & it was brilliant. It gave me brief reminder of why my faith had been so strong for many years, but I am still very dubious of Churches.

I have been a Christian all my life & in the last 6 years I have not. I have never had any close friends who were Christian, to be honest I have no Christian friends. Many Christians that I have met have been hypocrites especially those of my age group.

I end up befriending older Christian people as they are so much more genuine, but I can’t really delve into the faith part of the religion as since I have left Church I have become a very sinful different person.

Can a person begin again in a judgemental Church environment? I truly don’t think so.

So back to the dilemma… Should I go back to Church or should I find something else to fill my spiritual void?

Despite my previous post, I feel like my New Year has already been tainted for the worst because I have made plans to travel with my old Church that are the most judgemental, distant & cliquey group I have ever had the misfortune to be around.

Now can I despite starting my year on the wrong footing, go back to Church or should I just stay away?

I guess blogging this dilemma isn’t going to help me decide, but at least it’s not sitting in my head.


Resolve in the New Year

Posted: December 30, 2012 in Uncategorized

Every year people make a resolution for the new year ahead. I never make a resolution because I don’t like to restrict myself, but this year I feel that I need to give myself restrictions.

Many people have one thing that they consider their resolution, but I can’t think of just one thing that I need to resolve for the new year.

My resolution (not in any particular order):

    Confidence Within
    Give to Charity
    Body Image
    More Time for Friends

This may not seen like much, but it is a big deal to me. Recently I was told that I was confident…
This surprised me because I couldn’t be further from confident. I am seriously insecure & I realise that I want to live up to that perception of myself.

I want the year 2013 to be my year.

I long to take the images in my head & make them reality. I see myself doing & being so much more than what I am.

One thing I wanted to get out from this post was that a New Years resolution may not ever be held up for more that a couple months, but if we used resolutions to resolve things that we didn’t feel we were able to achieve in the preceding year.

Life is too short to live each year the same as the last year.