Connecting with this World

Posted: February 4, 2013 in Uncategorized

I have never considered myself popular. I grew up very sheltered & find it very difficult to find common ground with people.

I have always talked to many people in my walk of life. In school I didn’t consider myself popular until I left & realised the amount of people I actually knew. And that has been a running theme in my life.

Since I lost a friend at work, I have become more aware of people drawing towards me in friendship.

I have never considered myself an outgoing person or an extrovert. I don’t understand why anyone would want to befriend me. I actually hardly ever have anything worthwhile to say.

I struggle to relate to this world!

I grew up so focused on pleasing God, that I spent no time trying to make connections with people.

Yes, all Christians pride themselves on all the connections they make at church, but I was so worried about my purpose for God’s plan. I didn’t care what people thought of me or whether I was surrounded by them.

Since walking away from church & God, I am faced with how distant I am from the world. I am not fashion obsessed, have a basic interest in sports & I am not a jet-setter. Speaking to people, especially those my age I truly feel the difference in our thought process. I am like an old woman, focused on life & not necessarily how the world can revolve around me.

I used to speak to God as though he were a tangible person stood right beside me. I didn’t think I was strange for doing so.

Now; I think I was crazy!

Passing up real-life for God, which has put me in a seriously awkward position today.

The only thing I find though is that people do speak to me. People seem desperate to connect with me & I am surprised.
Why me? I am nothing special & I certainly don’t think I’m very interesting.

But then I think about my knack for listening.

I like listening to people. People are so interesting; I think I should have been a psychologist.
That can’t be the only reason, but I guess I’ll have to make this a to be continued… topic.



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