Stay The Path

Posted: April 26, 2013 in Uncategorized

This weekend I am attending Colour Conference; For those who are not familiar with Christian functions, this is a women’s conference (a gathering of women only to hear the word of God).

I love going to these sorts of events, not for the people (possible friends to be made), but for the preachers. They usually come from USA & Australia, but its just nice to hear from people who can’t disappoint because you’ll get to know them.

As anyone who ever reads my blogs knows that most of my posts are based on my anger at the church & Christians, but I know it’s a journey that I could have done in a personal diary; But I don’t think that’s what God wanted me to do. As I have not really heard God’s voice lately (or ever), but I like to think he guides me… Even if my choices in the last few years are clearly not God driven!

I feel that all my struggles needed to be public because it gives me no hiding place, no secrets that I’m afraid to share. I am a very private person & it took a lot of stressing & fear to upload my first blog post, let alone my first blog post about me.

I feel that my journey through life is going to start going crazy & I’m going to be facing some serious challenges, but it may be worth it, if I can become stronger coming out the other side.

After the first day of Colour Conference I got home & opened my Bible app on my iPad & this scripture is what was revealed to me: (This was the Verse of the Day)

“Wash and make yourselves clean. Take your evil deeds out of my sight; stop doing wrong. Learn to do right; seek justice. Defend the oppressed. Take up the cause of the fatherless; plead the case of the widow.”
(Isaiah 1:16, 17 NIV)

I felt like God was confirming that He has given me a second chance at life in Christ. My only problem was, I lost my way once due to living a life in Christ alone & I will only backslide again.

At the opening of the conference Bobbie Houston; who I must admit is a great speaker & brings a humanity that I think a lot of Christian speakers lack. Anyway, Bobbie gave us delegates 3 things:

1- we are part of a glorious beginning & end.
2- there is a glorious journey within these two bookends of time.
3- there is a glorious completion toward which we are all walking.

Stating that God is going to mark us with a resolve. God wanting us to go BOLDLY into our future.

This really opened my eyes… Which is another teaching; I am talking about kick starting my soul. I always struggled with my direction/purpose as a Christian when I was growing up. Where did God want me & will I be able to do as God asked, but I never felt/heard God to know what to do; then hearing these 3 things I realised that I was expecting too much too soon. God knew I wasn’t in the right place & I had a lot of growing to do.

Also this was revealed in Bobbie’s message:

Stay the path!

I could have really used this 7 years ago; I always thought I was on the path but I was teetering on the edge, neither on nor off the path. So God knew I wasn’t ready for anything, but I just felt abandoned; because it felt like God had not placed anyone in my life that could be honest & open with me to tell me I wasn’t completely, wholeheartedly on the path.

I feel that I could be on the path, but I know there are still so much I need to change; but that doesn’t stop God from using me. We are all called to light the Earth & when you are told that you are a sinner; that should not stop you pursuing what God has in store for you. We are all sinners, no one can claim to be without sin!

“If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us.” (1 John 1:8 NIV)

As you probably have noticed this post is a very strong u-turn on my part in regards to my faith. As you’ll probably assume, it may not last long; but I am hoping that this isn’t just conference hype on my part, but a change in me. (Referring to being into God like I was all those years ago.)


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