Archive for May, 2014

Sometimes, you have some really Good/Big news to tell someone, anyone and everyone who will listen, but how do you go about it telling them? Especially when this news can SAVE their life!

I am talking about the Good News of Jesus Christ.

I have really taken Him for granted, because I have known Him my whole life and had my journey (whether good or bad) with Him all these years that I have neglected the importance of spreading the Word!

I never felt I was good enough to tell His story. With Easter and Christmas such big events in our Western culture what I can ever say will only mimic what people think they already know.

I heard a poem recently that was trending probably years ago, but I can be a bit slow on the up take. It spoke to my heart as a Christian who lost their faith because the Church religionness.

Jefferson Bethke the guy that wrote and performed the poem has written a book ‘Jesus>Religion‘ and it has really opened my eyes to why I really struggled with my faith. I have been following religion instead of Jesus and I feel that can happen to many people.

So with that in mind… How do you tell people about Jesus if you haven’t built a true relationship with Him yourself?
It’s so easy to get caught up in the rules and forget it’s a relationship with Jesus first.

Whenever I tell people that I am a christian I feel like a fraud. Deep down I don’t feel like a Christian. I love Jesus, I believe the Bible and I like going to Church.
I am not in a Christian community and I have one Christian friend. So I feel such a hypocrite because I have a better life away from the Church than within it. I have never been accepted in Church environments and my one Christian friend was made during my time volunteering at a Christian Television channel.

Because of this I feel inadequate to pass on the news about Jesus. Once I hit a stumbling block I put to rest my evangelising. Why would I want to further ruin the life of someone by encouraging them to follow Jesus and then have to take them to a Church that I am not even comfortable in.

I knew a girl (actually woman, but she seemed younger than me) and she was seriously broken. She had lost her boyfriend of many years, she couldn’t function at work and she later had to seek counselling. I desperately wanted to invite her to Church, but I felt it would only push her further into depression as that is exactly what happens to me.

People regardless should feel that the Church is a safe place not a clique of mean girls/boys. In films when people are running away from something, someone or situations they always head to the church, but in reality I doubt many people would consider running to a church unless it was the only place available. Most people now head to the nearest place with alcohol to drown their sorrows.

I would love to spread God’s Word, but… Why should I?

If as a Christian I can’t be vulnerable in the Church, then how can I bring those I meet who are broken to Jesus in a Church setting. I don’t see myself as a lone evangelist for Jesus, but I’d like to be a part of a community that is trying to build people up with the grace of God.

There is a reason why I use the term cliques when referring to the Church in my blog posts and that is because clique means ‘a small close-knit group of people who do not readily allow others to join them‘. This is exactly how I feel about the Church, but it is a much bigger group and they have a set of rules you need to adhere to before they can even consider your application to join.

So how can I send those who are lost to a place lacking the openness or acceptance needed to fix the broken?


I wrote a blog post about my fear and insecurity, I was very nervous about being surrounded by all those Christian girls at the Conference.

My hesitation was warranted, because for a horde of Christians the polite etiquette of ‘please’, ‘excuse me’ and ‘thank you’, seemed lost on everyone. People were moving around a lot and it was VERY crowded, but no one passing through could even think to use “excuse me” when they squeezed through the heaving crowds and no one even said “thank you” when they were let through.

This is so unsettling for me as I have been to rock festivals and I was terrified that I’d get treated badly when trying to get through crowds, but that was not the case. They were the politest people I could have been around, paving the way for people to get through crowds and using the correct etiquette. Such a civilised crowd considering most first impressions when meeting a rock fan can be quite negative.

It is such a shame that I don’t have such a glowing review of Christian ‘girls’…

As women we are expected to be polite, gentle and respectful of others, unfortunately within the church we hold ourselves so highly regarded that we feel that manners are beneath us.

There is one plus point from this Conference and that was the Host. She has a celebrity persona but when she speaks, she cuts herself down to human level. She is one of the girls!

She felt she was not a power preacher, but for me she was. It was like she had read my blog post and was telling everyone “Hey, we are women of God and should not reject or judge anyone!”

I feel like God Himself gave her the words to speak into my heart. She read from Jude, but it was verse 22-23 (message Bible) about being ‘tender to sinners’. We are all sinners, not just those non-believers, but those in the church whether you are seeking or doubtful.

We are on a journey and this road is long and hard, so wouldn’t it be easier if you weren’t doing it alone? The body of Christ is supposed to be us (Christians), but a body has many parts and they all work together for a collective goal and if just one part does not work, the body doesn’t work to the best of its ability. We need to keep this Body of Christ healthy!